KaRaKiRiKoRoRo

Mayoritas dari kita pasti ada saatnya merasa gerah untuk diperhatikan  dari orang di sekitar kita, baik itu orang tua, saudara, teman, dosen/guru atau siapapun itu yang ada di sekitar kita, untuk setiap hal yang kita lakukan.  Semua orang ingin punya privasi pribadi dan waktu pribadi masing-masing. Sehingga perhatian orang lain kadang menjadi suatu hal yang sangat menjengkelkan. Sebagai contoh perhatian dari orang tua. Orang tua kadang sangat ketat dalam memperhatikan dan mengawasi anak-anaknya. Sebagian besar orang tua benar-benar membuat aturan yang begitu ketat bagi anak-anaknya. Aturan jam belajarlah, aturan jam bermainlah, aturan jam tidurlah, aturan dalam bergaullah, dan banyak aturan lainnya yang secara kasat mata bagi kita anak-anaknya secara umum sangat menjengkelkan. Apalagi kita sebagai anak muda, yang masih berada pada masa aktif-aktifnya dan benar-benar ingin melakukan banyak hal. Aturan dan perhatian itu seakan-akan menjadi rantai yang begitu mengekang kita, ya...

Setahun lebih sudah ternyata aku menaruh rasa padamu… Tak tahu kapan tepatnya rasa ini mulai tumbuh dan kubiarkan untuk mekar di hatiku… Kau yang tak pernah terpikirkan untuk kusuka sejak pertama kali bertemu dan berkenalan… Kau yang dahulu adalah kuanggap sama saja dengan teman-teman pria yang ada di sekitarku… Kau yang adalah di luar kriteria pria yang ingin kujadikan pasangan hidupku… Tapi, sudah setahun ini, ternyata kau telah mengisi salah satu ruang di hatiku… Ruang khusus yang sengaja kusediakan untuk seorang yang ingin kujadikan sebagai pendamping hidupku… Seorang yang akan menjadi rekan sekerjaku menjalani kehidupan ini, sekali untuk selamanya… Suka-Sayang-Cinta atau apalah itu yang akupun tak mengerti akan apa yang ada di diriku saat ini… Yang kutahu, perasaan ini telah terlanjur memenuhi hati ini… Tidak tahu apa yang telah memupuknya sehingga ia mampu mekar tanpa aku sendiri pun sadari… Sampai akhirnya, di saat perasaan ini tengah bermekaran di hati...

Am i nut already?? I think, YES!!! For a lmost a week, i've turned on my playlist with EndahNRhesa's song, 'When You Love Someone' and Chery Belle's, 'Diam-Diam Suka'. What a crazy thing i was did??.. There was no day with the songs... This is the 1st time i am nut as now...I have lost my mind.. .I cant act as myself anymore...:( If i has a brave to tell him..If i strong enough to hear and to accept for his response...And so many if...:(... I love you but it is not so easy, to make you here with me... I wanna touch and hold you forever But you still in my dream.. I can't stand to wait till night is comin' to my life But I still have time to break a silence.. When you love someone, just be brave to say, you want him to be with you..:'( I used to hide and watch u from.a distance and i knew you realize I was looking for a time to get closer at least to say hello I cant stand to wait your love is comin' to my life And i never thau...

Terserahlah...I'm finish...I'm quit...And i don't care anymore... Aku munafik...Emang iya!!!Aku senang memerintah...Emang iya!!!Aku keras kepala...Emang iya!!!Inilah aku... Terima atau gak, aku gak peduli lagi...Mungkin selama ini aku terlalu naif dan sok polos. Aku merasa semua baik-baik saja...Oke i'm quit... Makasih semua buat pelajaran ini...Nice to know you all...

I just re-tweet @DamnItsTrue account, that tweeted 'I love you, i hope you know it!'. YEAH ...I thought of that too almost along this week. I love you for almost 1 year. I just want you to know that, nothing else. I am not asking you to answer for what i feel in you. I am not asking you to be my boyfriend. Just accept my feeling, even with no reply. Just accept me as my self and don't avoid me after you know my feeling with you.. Just simple as that..:) I just want to say 'I love You'... And i'm happy for what i feel with you..To know you is my pleasure to me..:)..Nice to know you...:) - Selamat   Datang Putra Desember ..:)-

A very loooongggggg weekend.. Yup.. It was a very long weekend.. 11th 'till 15th October.. Kalau boleh dikatakan, libur segitu lamanya di hari aktif kuliah adalah anugerah yang WOWWW banget bagi mahasiswa (- my opinion- ).. Secara, liburnya ada 5 hari gitu.. Rencana liburan udah banyak.. Bayang2 akan liburan sebelum tanggal itu sudah menghiasi pikiran ini.. But...H-3 hari sebelum rencana liburan yang tersusun sudah cukup matang, BUYARRRR.... Ga bakal ada vacation ke luar kota. Artinya GAK ADA LIBURAN... Aishhhh..-_____________-".. 'It would be a very bore holiday', i thought.. Hari pertama libur, Jumat 11 Oktober, saya hanya membaca novel aja seharian.. Untung udah dapat novel sebelum liburan. Kalau gak, bener2 bakal jadi mayat hidup di kamar - hanya tidur aja seharian. Untung malamnya, kawan2 pada ngajak jalan, walau jalannya yah di Surabaya aja, as usual .. But... at the night, i thought it was a nightmare.. Seperti biasa, kalau acara nongkrong-nongkrong udah ...

I want a new handphone... I want a tablet... I want to live in Japan... I want to marry a good man... For the things I want above, I then i ask my self: What type of handphone i want? What type of tablet i want? What perfecture you want to live in Japan? What year? For what? What is your measure of 'a good man'? What that man looklike? How old of him? What is he? And so many questions will come to me to specify for all things i want. Our lord is An awesome God... He has no limitness... He can do anything... No need to doubt and no need to fear, when you ask Him something you want... He gives us chance to ask Him anything we want... But, we have no power to pursue Him to realize and to give everything we ask Him to do... Let His will be done, not ours... In asking, never limit your self to tell Him what you want... Never limit His power for everything we want... He has everthing in this world for every single thing we want... He has power to realize it... We reciev...

As a christian, we have no exception for the hardness of life..But we have reason to stand.Hope in Christ..

Masuk gerbang-Nya bersyukur Dengan penuh pujian Bersuka di hadirat-Nya Mari besarkan agung nama-Nya Puji Dia tiuplah sangkakala Musik dan tarian Semua makhluk di bumi di surga Dengan seg'nap hati naikkan pujian Reff: S'bab Tuhan baik S'bab Tuhan baik S'bab Tuhan baik Anug'rah-Nya kekal selamanya(2x) Yesus Kristus Allah Tuhanku Pencipta s'galanya Datang sujud di hadapan-Nya Angkat tangan-mu naikkan pujian Because God is so good..:) The song's lyric above is one of my favorite song ever..I first heard that song, when i was in 10 grade of SHS when we made a visit in to an orphanage  near of my dormitory in North Sumatera..This song was sang by a  blind girl with her band, that consisted of very blessed talented disable boys..A very blessed experience i ever had.. Eventhough they were born as disable boys/girls, i found soul of winner in them..With all of their limitness, they could sing this song like a perfect man..There was no any sadness in t...

Honestly, i hate to love others...Even if it is a love of friendship, love between boy and girl, or other kind of love.. I hate to be in love, because i'm a  very sensitive one.. It feel too hurt, if someone i loved do something, even a very simple thing, in a way that i never ever expected. It feel hurt at the time they go away from my life. I'm too scare of loosing them from my life..I dont want them to leave me alone.. Yes i'm selfish..I dont want if they are taken from my life.. So it'll be better if i never loving them. It'll be better just to know them.. It feel to hurt, when i realize i love them so much...:'(

Sssssss.... Even i just got added sleeping time for 1 hour, it really uncomfort sleep. How come? Because in 1 hour i got scariest dream i ever had..It really felt like stop my heart beating. At the sametime my heart beating felt faster too... Huuuuuuu... But fortunately, i woke up..And the dream stopped, with unending story.. Hope the dream won't continue in my next sleeping time.. I just want to have a nice sleep.. Not a scary sleep.. Brrrrrrrrr.....0.o

Hmmm..Its been 3 months after my last writing..Whereas so many things happened..The almost 6 hours flight pending..The funny moments in dormitory with my brothers and sisters of Yasop..My family Theunion 5th birthday..A great vacation to Goa Cina beach..And others experiences along the holiday..But the lazyness made me had no willing to write it all on this blog..No experience share yet for this 3 months..The studying process in my college was got rest, my blog too..hahha... But maybe, i'll start to write down it all in 1st week of college.. Because i'll still have much time of free before the serious study time is start..hahahha.. Hope so..And i'll not forget to do that later..hahhaha... And with one condition which i will start at the time and for the next, next time.. I will write down it all in English..Even my English in a bad mark, i dont care.. Learn by excercise.. Hahhaha... Ganbatte !!!!! *\^o^/*

Kemaren pas naik gunung, pas kecapekan, karen Mahameru yang udah kelihatan, tapi gak nyampe-nyampe juga walau udah jalan lama, saya tergelitik dengan ucapan salah seorang pendaki juga yang menyatakan, "Langit juga kelihatan kok.. Tapi kok gak nyampe-nyampe" .... Hmmmmmmm...... Sangat bener emang perkataan dia itu... Sederhana tapi ngena banget.. Istilahnya begini. Segala yang kita lihat udah nyaris selesai/sampai/dekat atau apalah itu yang ingin kita terwujud hasilnya sesuai keinginan kita, belum tentu bakal sesuai yang kita inginkan.. Keep goin' guys.... Dont stop, until you find the end of it!! Jiayo!!! Ganbatte!!! And God bless.....!!!!!!!! *\^^/*