Sad....:(

Honestly, i hate to love others...Even if it is a love of friendship, love between boy and girl, or other kind of love.. I hate to be in love, because i'm a  very sensitive one.. It feel too hurt, if someone i loved do something, even a very simple thing, in a way that i never ever expected. It feel hurt at the time they go away from my life. I'm too scare of loosing them from my life..I dont want them to leave me alone..
Yes i'm selfish..I dont want if they are taken from my life.. So it'll be better if i never loving them. It'll be better just to know them.. It feel to hurt, when i realize i love them so much...:'(

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