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What a shameful person I am. I've lost my last chance to tell what i want to tell. Just because of my ego, I couldn't give the gift that I've prepared since 2 weeks ago. A gift as a farewell and a thank you. This gift will only end in my bag, as a sad ending for my ego.

Sayōnara  means good bye in Japanese A word you say at the time you leave or left  A word with sadness and happiness  Sayōnara It will become a word with sadness for me 41 days left before a "sayonara' is come, when you leave 41 days before I miss you so much I will not see you  with my own eyes I will not hear your voice with my own ear I will not can do that any more for periods i don't know how long it will take Maybe it will only take months? Years? Or maybe the time will never come  Will be the day you'll leave is the time I can do all of that thing? I hate that day! But you said, you are waiting forward on that day so much You missed your country, your family, and your normal life so much That fact is hurt me when you tell it I still want you to leave here But I have no brave to said And maybe, even though I'll say it I'm sure nothing's gonna change I'm no body I'm just a secret admirer of you ...

Love is like an uninvited guest It comes like a thief Without you realizing it, the love come to your life Love for someone you never thought of The love fill your heart, your mind, and your life Without asking for your permit, the love grows 'Till the day you realize it The love is already jumping in your heart Affecting your brain, so the only thing stay on your mind is him To be honest, I don't know what love is Is it only a feeling between two of people and proofed with a status? Or is it something you feel with other who steal you mind? One thing I know, this is the 2nd time I feel for this deep of feeling For years I still can't make a move on from one of my friend Now I feel the same feeling I felt with him Something that make me happy even for a very simple thing I have with him A crunchy humor can be a very good humor to re-laugh A very simple act can be a very good memory to remember Suddenly, everything seems more interesting now But I can...

Halo, hola, alohaaa!!! After the very, very, very busy weeks in last Dec '14 to Jan '15, finally on March 14th of 2015 I graduated from ITS Surabaya. I was officially as a Environmental Engineer. It was a very happy moment. Finally, after my hardwork for about 4 years in ITS Surabaya, plus with an extra hardwork in the last semester, I can finish my Bachelor study. But, now I realize, a status as a student is better than a status as an unemployee. It already H+39 after my graduation, but i still don't find any job. Moreover, some of friend i know, already end their unemployee status and been worked in some reputable industry. And me???? I still stay with my status, as an unemployee :( It's to tired to wait. I just want to find a job soon. I want to help my sister with her new house payment. I want to give my parent some little present. I want to treat my brothers with some good food in my own money. But, i still can't do that, since I still don't find any...

It's been 1 month since my last post. After filled with very, very hard weeks, for this last month, finally i can breathing a bit freely. The very final assignment of me been finished and now i'm facing a phase of unemployment. Yeah, eventhough it's not officially yet, my new status is as an umployment :( For this last one month, many moments were created (wekeweke, i do not sure whether it is suit to mentioned as 'created' :P or no). After finished my final test, finished the book and prepared all documents for the graduation, me with my friends of TL 2011 had a excursion study to Bali for 5D/4N (include 2 night along the trip). Not felt so excited at that trip. Beside for its not too attractive destination, also because of my foolness been fooled by the textile seller in Sukowati market. hohoho :'( After cameback from Bali, at the same day of our return (Friday, Jan 30th), me and 6 of my friends (TL2011 too) and one of outsider (my friend's girlfr...

Feel fear for being fail Feel fear for being a looser The feeling of fear fill my mind this time I cant control my mind, to feel no worry Seeing my friend been succeed to get their Engineer title Face of happiness, face of satisfy One week before my time One week before i know what will  the result One week to prepare the best# One week to face all the reality I just want one thing Heart full of gratitude A sincere heart, to admit what God's answer for my pray Help me God Hold my hand o Lord Hold my heart o Lord Take this fear and change it with a hope in You Need You so much For i know, i can't handle all this thing my self Amen -Env. Eng. Dept, Jan 9th 2015, 20:20-