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Ah God, I thought at this period I already have my heart healed! But I was wrong. It still feel hurt. I still can't function normally as before. The memories, the feeling of missing him (for the talks, chat, and just sharing reels on IG), and all the expectation and plans I created: hurt me every day, even after 8 months passed. Did I do big sins in the passed? So I should endure this feeling, which felt like taking my life? Why can't I just forget him. Why just can't I stop from wishing him will reach out for me one day? What's wrong with you Beth? You've been so strong and happy before met him. You care nothing but only about your self and your happiness. But why should you put your self and happiness before him now? What is so special about him? Please, back to your happy version of Elisabeth. The woman who enjoy and love her self before anyone else. Who will not care about people who hurt your feeling. Ayo Beth, move on!! Ayo bahagia lagi tanpa berekspektasi tha...